Life happens. That’s really all I could say about where I have been since my last blog post. Since middle school, I have been about social media starting with AIM, Xanga, then to Myspace. Social media can be very tough to keep up with and at one point last year I had to step back. Don’t get me wrong, I love blogging and keeping my friends and family motivated with their own goals. One issue in particular last year was the start of my so called “life trials.”
The Root Cause – Literally
Towards the end of last year, I started noticing my hair falling out more than usual in the shower. One day as I parted my hair, I noticed a big patch of hair loss. Might sound superficial to some, but I love my hair and it makes me a big part of who I am. My doctor ordered lab tests only to find out that my hemoglobin and thyroid tests came back normal. I was referred to a dermatologist. who diagnosed me with Alopecia Areata. Alopecia areata is an autoimmune disorder in which your body mistakenly attacks your hair follicles. I was able to get some steroid shots that would make those areas active again.
The Domino Effect
The main cause according to her is stress, and I really didn’t feel like I was stressing about anything so major. To this day, the more I worry about my hair and not stressing out about stressing out is a battle I just can’t seem to get a grasp on. Since I got these news, it was a blow to my self-esteem and since feeling that way it ended up hurting other areas of life like my physical fitness. I stopped my routine of eating healthy and working out on a regular basis. With the weight gain, I just wasn’t feeling myself anymore. I didn’t want to post on social media any more, I didn’t feel confident enough. I’m coming out with this post because I just want everyone to know that the strongest people have their days, or months for this matter. Life happens, and it’s okay to breathe and press pause on the high demands of social media.
Although I haven’t had any new patches, I started to realize an overall hair loss around April of this year. My dermatologist now diagnosed me with Telogen Effluvium. Here I am thinking I’m all good ’cause no more new patches and now I get these news. I lost once again, and honestly no matter how many people tell me it’s fine, it makes me very sad. I can’t help to feel less beautiful or like I lost a part of me. More lab tests were ordered and my body was showing low signs of iron, zinc, and Vitamin D. I have seen an improvement since taking these vitamins and it has made me have a positive outlook. I have a plan to incorporate more “mind and soul” activities whether it’s incorporating restorative classes at The Barre Code, taking solo trips, or seriously just binge-watching my narco-telenovela, El Señor De Los Cielos.
“Momentum Demands Movement”
The end of last year was rough. However, I did have little momentum that helped me in getting back to my routine. I mentioned in a previous post how much I love The Barre Code that I knew it was an environment I wanted to be a part of. I auditioned for an instructor role and taught my first class in January! I’m very excited to share this process and my progress. This studio, along with my family, and friends have been the three key factors in giving me strength to overcome these trials. Everyone’s unconditional love and support is all I could ask for.